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Devastation Revealed

I am reading the book  " Women Who Run With the Wolves" book written by Clarissa Pinkola Estes.
I highly recommend it to  ALL women!
I came across this sentence 
A woman may try to hide from the devastation 's of her life, but the bleeding , the loss of life's energy, will continue until  she recognizes the predator for what it is and contains it.  
Immediately, I was enlighten to a truth. I was that woman hiding the devastation of being abused from the world. I pretended to be happy for a very long time.  My soul was bleeding inside. My aura energy was losing life.
I continued reading ( I only recommend you read 2 to 3 pages a day, allow yourself to reflect on what you've read as this is a very profound book) and this next sentence spoke to me.
I am about to share something with you that only my family members know and my oldest son remember as well.  And it isn't until I have read this sentence that I realized my soul was warning me to get help!
During my 15 years of being in an abusive relationship. I remember countless of times I would wake up in the middle of the night yelling. I would sit up in my bed and just yell. I yelled so loud that I remember my oldest son came asking "Mom, are you okay" at  which point I would awaken and say "Yes, I am okay baby." I don't recall what I was dreaming about. But I do know that during this time I was very stressed out, depressed, etc etc.
As I read the sentence above. I know it was my soul yelling wake up, get help, GET OUT!

I thank God for giving me the strength and courage to leave this relationship.
I am so grateful to have OVERCOME all those obstacles and be able to help others.

Devastation Revealed was the abused being manifested in my night mare cry for help.

Remember abuse of any type is wrong.  Physical, Emotional, Verbal, & Mental abuse are all forms of Domestic Violence.  I have a website dedicated to spread awareness. If you or someone you love is in an abusive relationship please share Overcoming Verbal Abuse with them.

As a survivor I know I felt alone. It was hard to talk about it to my friends.  I could only trust my family and towards the end I kept it to myself. 

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