Nanncie Santana Blog

Yesterday I Cried Updating because the video that I record will not upload. So I am going to in writing form.  Yesterday I had a wonderful day visiting my niece and meeting my great niece for the first time. It was also my moms birthday. It was a wonderful day. I arrived home and ate dinner. I logged onto my laptop and noticed I had a friend request.  I clicked on it and saw my daughter’s name and photo. I immediately accepted the request. My heart was filled with excitement and joy at the possibility of a reunion. I texted my sister with the excitement. After I settled down I clicked on my daughters name and saw "Add Friend"  and just like that my heart sank. It triggered me. Yesterday I Cried. I texted my sister with the disappointment.  Yet in the mist of the events, I found a little peace.  The video still isn't able to upload but the purpose of the message is to allow yourself to sit with your triggers. When you get real and raw with your emotio...

What a beautiful quote. I am a mother of three children.  I know that my heart loves each of them equally.  There are days I wish I had 3 little ones again.  I am currently experiencing Parental Alienation with two of my children. I feel I am walking with a torn heart daily. Although I am going through this in my life, I won't allow it to keep me from being grateful for so many things. I am forever thankful for my kids. I love them with all my heart. I am grateful for my family. No matter what they have always been there for me. I am grateful for my friends. I am grateful for my followers, because you've shared your story with me. I will continue to coach you to live healthy and happy. There will be times you will feel down. That is part of life and being human. But I am here to tell you that if you are willing to change your mind, you will be able to change your life. You have the power!  For more information on  Parental Alienation 

As this week began, I received some news that left me shocked, heartbroken, and more determined than ever to share my story and bring awareness to things that are kept in the dark by many.                                                          My Story. I am a mother of three children (pictured above) my oldest son is now 25 years old going on 26 years old and my twins are 18 years old going on 19 years old.  For the last four years since 2012, my twins were alienated from me. They were brainwashed, controlled, and manipulated  because after 15 years in which I was being physically, emotionally, and verbally abused along with being threatened in this distributive marriage.   I lived with a man that was a narcissist and when I left everything was done in their (my ex's family) power to control the situation with...

Yesterday's Angel Message was pray. I know God and my guardian angels are always sending me powerful positive messages that I need.  Yesterday my emotions were high.  My dear assistant handed me a ticket to his graduation. This ticket is not just a ticket to his graduation but also to my twins whom graduate with his class too. I am an alienated parent ( Parental Alienation ) therefore when he gave me this ticket, my heart was overjoyed. I held back my tears.  I haven't seen my 17 year old twins in almost 3 years.  May 31st will be the day I will see them.  I reached out to their father to make sure I received a couple of tickets but replied to me that I needed to ask the kids.  I did but have yet to get an answer.  The ticket to me is a keepsake of this special day. As a mother, you know we keep everything. From their first bottle, clothes, the bracelet that they first sporty at the hospital. I blog about it because this is how I can express my ...

Have you ever had an  "Answered Prayer" ?  Today, was one of the happiness day of my life! After 2 years, God  answered my prayer . It was a long painful wait but honesty won at the end. The funny thing is that the battle never had to have taken place.  See my battle was winning 50/50 shared parental custody of my twins. Something so simple yet something that was fought so that I would not have.......I waited 2 years to have my day in court. To face a judge and to pour my heart and soul that I loved my children, that I was always a good mother, that even though they do not want anything to do with me, it wasn't because I was a bad mother.  See my crime was leaving a relationship that was killing me inside.  I never imagined that someone that loves their children would turn around and put them against the other parent. That is called Parental Alienation. I didn't know this until I left and it started happening.  I have forgiven everyone invo...

Today the cords have been officially cut - I am no longer attached to the abuse legally. Over the last two years, I have spiritually grown, I have forgive all the abuse I allowed myself to endure. I forgive my abuser and I forgive myself for staying in a bad relationship for so long. I went to court today, I swore in front of the judge and in front of God that I would say the truth.  My heart is free of guilt because I did just that! I sat there while the other party denied ever doing anything bad to me. I listen to the lies.  And I closed my eyes and mentally I declare God you know the truth as it happened. My Heart is FREE of Guilt I want to thank all of my family and friends that continue their prayers for me during these last two years. I want to thank everyone for their encouragement and support. It hasn't been easy being alienated from my children. I know they have been brainwashed, controlled, and manipulated against me. But I also know that their is a God ...