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Facing the Truth

Facing the Truth.
On Thursday, I drove to the Lee County Clerk of the Courts to get copies of the truth. As I drove to face this truth that God had already revealed to me. I couldn't believe that a person with authority, would end up being a lair.  Sadly, I also had to face the truth that I trusted her and was vulnerable. I realized I had to ask for forgiveness to those that I had hurt and once again I found myself seeking forgiveness to myself for making the wrong choice in trusting a person that know I wish I would have never meet. I also had so many things going on in my mind. As I drove to the court house, my angelic team send me a number sign #4444. I was reassured I wasn't alone.  I arrive and got my number #124 (1+2+4= 7) totally understanding I am in a 7 personal numerology year.  The truth was finally being revealed.  Ironically, the person whom had marked things on these papers that were NOT true, saw me sitting there waiting. She came to me and asked why I was there. I told her I am here to get copies of the papers you did for me back in 2012. She said you know they are going to charge you, and I said yeah I know. She said I could get have gotten it for you, why didn't you remind me. Granted, I had already asked her for these papers ( I was testing her to see if she could come clean but she didn't ) a week prior she had brought me all kinds of papers but those papers so I knew she really wasn't going to be honest with me. Although God had already revealed to me that this person had lied on my papers. I needed to see it for myself. I needed to see what my kids had saw. And when I got these papers...sitting in my car, I saw she had mark weapons, she had mark drug, and alcohol.  God is my witness and my heart is free that I did not say any of that. I am guilty of trusting a person whom said she would help me. I cried. I asked God to help me forgive myself once again for my choices, for trusting her. 
I just don't understand how someone can play with someone's life! I wonder how many other people she has done this too. I know. I know. I should have gotten copies of these papers years ago. I know. I remember everything being done on a computer and signing a yellow paper and given a copy of a yellow paper. I can't go back to that day. I can only learn from this mistake. I can only pray that those that were hurt can forgive me. I know God knows I did not say those things. I did not lie. Because I never said anything that she checked off. At this point, I want nothing to do with this person. I regret the day I meet her. I regret the day I trusted her to be a trustworthy person. I turn her over to God's hands. Because you don't do this.....again....I own up to my error.....I should have gotten paper copies that day....and I didn't.....I am facing the truth that was my mistake. I am far from perfect and in 2012, I was beginning a road of healing. 
I know now that my kids made their choices because of what they thought I had done. I can understand it.  
For anyone going to file court papers, please do not trust anyone. Make sure you get copies of what you sign and make sure they haven't mark something you didn't say. 
Learn from my mistake. 
Now I turn to the divine's forgiving grace. Knowing I am purging someone that does not serve my highest good. Forgiving her. Forgiving myself. And moving forward. This too shall past.  
Facing the truth. 
Facing my mistakes.

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